I don't need to tell everyone that it's Friday!! I'm so glad!! Yesterday, I must have overdone something because going to bed last night, brought me waves of pain. It feels like it's underneath my shoulder blade and man oh man, does it hurt!! So today, Mark has banned me from doing anything but taking it easy.....I don't know if I can do that! Then again, I have to try my best to be obedient!! After I finish here, I am going to go back to bed!! I didn't sleep too well, last night and I am still very weary!! I have a pile of books to take upstairs with me, so that I don't get bored, while taking it easy. I get bored really easily, if I have to stay in bed, for any length of time. I am really kind of nervous about not being able to go to the gym, today, but I did get three days of good workouts in....Maybe if I feel better, this afternoon, I can go and just do my cardio training.....That is, if I can even drive!! I'll have to play it by ear!! I really hope I can catch a few episodes of the Duggars on the television today!! I love Michelle Duggar.....she's my example of a quiet gentle spirit!!
I got some work done, on my kitchen yesterday!! It's not finished, but headway has been made, so I am encouraged!! For me, cleanliness is coming closer to Godliness....and looking less and less like godlessness..... Mark noticed that I'd done some work and that felt good!! It always feels good when Mark notices the things I've done....I haven't ever gotten a lot of approval, in my past life and no one ever paid me much mind, unless I was getting in trouble. I like positive attention. It helps to quiet all of the angry voices in my mind and heal the hurt of the past. It's amazing how satan uses all of the hurtful, sad memories of the past, to influence my present!! I have been working with Pastor Dave, for almost two years on this and I've made a lot of progress, but there is still much progress to be made!! I thank God daily for forgiveness and for loving me, despite all of my warts and my afflictions.....For sending me wonderful sisters in Christ....for sending me Pastor Dave.....For leading Mark and I to FBC!! And I praise God for the pain in my shoulder....because it reminds me that I am not superwoman and that I need to be mindful of my humanity....Pushing the boundaries is fine, but knowing ones limits is as equally important!!
Mark reminded me, this morning, that I forgot to mention his son, Donovan, in my posting, yesterday.....I didn't forget.....I have many many issues with my stepson, who just turned 16 years old, in October. The biggest issue is the fact that he wants me to just die!! He tells everyone that I need to just fall in a ditch and die....that he wants me to burn up and die!! He's a child and he doesn't realize what he's saying.....that's what I hear from people!! Sorry!! I don't cop to that, at all....At sixteen years of age, he knows exactly what he's saying!! He tells his dad "Oh, I never said that...." and Mark believes him...Thing is, I've overheard Donovan saying things such as these, while on the phone, with my daughter.....Donovan is a notorious liar and even when he was young...seven years old, young, he's used threats of violence to try and get what he wanted, from both myself and his sister....The child needs help, but he's never going to get it, until his mother gets her head out of the sand and realizes how much of a problem he actually has.....
Well, I'm off to bed!! I need more rest and my shoulder us now throbbing.....If I feel better, later, I shall write more.....
Blessings,
His servant,
Lisa
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