Late is Better than Never,,,,,

Good Evening, Friends....
I am late in posting this, today!! I haven't felt very well, today and I've been resting. As I have gotten older, there is a specific time of the month that has gotten less easy for me to cope with, than when I was younger. Funny, I thought as a woman grows older, her biological operations become easier to handle.....so, what the heck's up with this? I expect to be feeling better tomorrow....I have company coming on Sunday and I need to clean my messy house....I'm just so worn out!! I am glad my friends are realists and they realize that Martha Stewart doesn't live here. Still I don't want my house to look like Pigpen lives here, either.

I'm struggling again, with my weight, my diet and my exercise regime. I can go along great, for a while and then I give up and struggle and then the whole kit and kaboodle goes into this spiraling yo-yo effect of lose, gain, lose, gain.....struggle, struggle, struggle....victory....struggle, this leads to condemnation and ultimately ends up in self loathing.....I try to lose weight for Mark, but he doesn't encourage me....I mean it starts out real well and then he forgets.....I try to lose weight for Mariah, so that she'll be proud to call me Mom and not be ashamed to be seen with me, out in public.....then I realize that she's a teenager and eventually, she's going to hate me, no matter what I look like....I try to lose weight to please my Heavenly Father....this is the hardest for me...See, my perception of "Father" has been damaged, by my life experience. I was never, nor am I now, anywhere near good enough for my earthly father, what makes me think that I could ever be good enough for my Heavenly Father?? So why even try? Right? WRONG!! Romans 8:37 says ³⁷ Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. and 2 Chronicles 7:14 says If My people which are called by My name, shall humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from Heaven and shall forgive their sin and heal their land. It seems like everyday, I start out determined and strong and by the end of the day, I'm indulging my flesh with donuts, double cheeseburgers and mashed potatoes. I'm getting very discouraged!! I feel so alone and so sad, sometimes. I'd love to have an accountability partner, someone who is also in the same boat as I...Someone I can call for prayer and encouragement and give prayer and encouragement, as well. But, people are busy and everyone has their own problems to deal with. Please friends, pray for me.....I have medical conditions that will be significantly better, if I can lose this weight. I just need a little strength and I need a lot of faith to get through this....Like Amy Grant says "It takes a little time sometimes, to get your feet back on the ground....Give it time"

Well, the week is nearly over and I am happy that we are another week closer to Mariah coming out for her summer visit. We have much planned for her, while she's here. I still have much to do to get ready for her, but I'm getting it done, a little at a time. Mark and I are very excited to be able to watch Mariah grow into a young woman. She's smart and she's beautiful and she's the apple of Daddy's eye!!

Rosemary and Joe are coming up on Sunday, to meet with Pastor, regarding their wedding. I will be happy to see them. Rosemary and I have been best friends since 8th grade. They'll come up for church and then meet with Pastor and then come back to our house for lunch!! Anyhoo, I had better git!! I need to start dinner....Pork Steak.....yum!! Anyhow, y'all have a great evening and love as He loves!!
In Him,
Lisa