For the Love of a Momma's Girl.....

Good Evening, my web bound friends and relations.....

Yes, I know it's been far too long, but you know me, I tend to go in spurts.......A spurt here, a spurt there....It's all good, though, because I love you all, whether I'm blogging or not!

Let's catch up a bit, shall we?

Things have been a whirlwind of prayer and rejoicing, here in our home! Mark was laid off from the job he held for over eight years, on November 5th.....Yeah, I know, right before the holidays....that kinda stinks!! I, being the worrisome person that I am, nearly had a triple coronary! But God is faithful and His promises are real! My friend Heather posted on my facebook that where God closes the door, somewhere he opens a window.....a really sweet sentiment from a really wonderful woman of God. I prefer to think of it as God closing the window and opening a door.....A really important door! Mark was home for a month. It was a good month, because I got to have a lot of wonderful time with my husband. A luxury we didn't have, too often, when he was working at the other job. I complained about him being in my hair, but I wouldn't have missed the time, for the world. Well, we applied for Unemployment Benefits and got those, without any problem.....though on Unemployment, we were making over a thousand dollars less that what we were, before. Mark started calling a bunch of people he met, through the other job and found a company called AC3. Within three days, he was interviewed and hired.....Within a week, he was working and loving it. He's making better pay and has better benefits....He's absolutely loving his job and I am so proud of him!! I am also very thankful to my Heavenly Father, for seeing us through the hard times and not ever leaving us to fend for ourselves......Mark and I both clung to Romans 8:28.....believing that God has a plan and a purpose for our lives and our testimony.

Mark is doing really well....He's on the building committee at church and he's also serving as a trustee, too. Recently, he and another church member, painted the floor in the fellowship hall and it looks quite spiffy. He loves getting to spend quality time with Mariah.....

I celebrated another birthday.....I turned plenty-two, this year......Yeah, I went there, sue me!! Life as a wife and mother is really satisfying and enriching for me. I am just in love with my life and my Savior, who makes it all work together for good!! I am ecstatic about finally getting a washing machine....Mark's friend Mike's son moved into a new home and gave us the washer and dryer that were in the unit.....After not having a washing machine, in my house, for over 2 years, it's like a miracle has happened!! I can do one load at a time......Whoo Hoo!!

Mariah is awesome!! She's doing well in school and loves her friends, her church family and spending time with us. She is truly a joy to parent and a joy to watch as she blooms from childhood into womanhood.....I really do stand in awe of her, sometimes. Just when I think she's never listened to a thing I've said, she does something....uses one of my idioms or quotes me verbatim and I have to believe that she truly does belong with us. She's smart and beautiful and she has the sharpest brain, I have ever seen!! She did inform me, though, the she is going to wait til I'm 45, before she starts calling me "Geeze-ette" (the feminine of Geezer...a name she calls her father) and that's a load off of my mind!! Mariah will be going back to Texas, the week after Christmas....to spend New Years with her mother and crew. She's not thrilled with the idea, but she's taking it in stride.....I am glad her mother is going to home the entire week, as I don't think it's good for Mariah to be subject to the scathing nature of her step-father all alone.

With Christmas right on our heels, we are thankful and rejoicing with Him, fully and completely. Though there is little (if any) money to spend on gifts, this year, at least for Mark and myself, we are anxious to spend Christmas Eve in Castro Valley, at Grammy's house. Yes, Mark is getting paid, but all of our bills are behind, including our rent....Praise the Lord we have a wonderful Christian landlord, who is patient and understanding.....Loving even, with us!! While we won't have gifts to open, on Christmas Day, we have the love of each other and the love of our Heavenly Father, who gave us the ultimate gift.....So for us, this year....Christmas will come without packages, boxes or bags and like the Whos down in Whoville, we will still sing and we will still be thankful for the love came down......The true gift of Christmas.

So that's what's been happening, in the past few weeks/months.....

So on with the show.......I had the best dinner and conversation with the worlds best daughter this evening.....We talked about food, we talked about love and we talked about accepting ourselves and each other, without judgment or negativity......Mariah her Daddy's girl.....but she's fast becoming a Momma's Girl, too. Nothing could make me happier....not even winning the lotto!! I finally know what unconditional love feels like, tangibly! It brings to my mind, 1 John 4: 7 and 8......Beloved let us love one another, for love is of God and he who loves is born of God and knows God, for he who does not love does not know God for God is love......This is real unconditional love.....No pretenses, no rules and no guidelines.....It's either a 'you do' or 'you don't' type of situation. I love the simplicity of love, as portrayed in this verse. It's cut and dried, hands tied behind the back, truth....Either you love or you don't know God. Daily, I try to teach Mariah about love......but I blew it, this weekend, when I had an argument in front of her, with someone I never envisioned arguing with.....No, it wasn't Mark, she's used to seeing me argue with him.....What it showed me was that I need to stop putting self first and start putting love first......in discovering this and praying about it, it seems to me, that sometimes, I parade my love around with a clanging cymbal.....Wanting and needing everyone to see and notice, instead of just loving to the bottom of my heart, without any expectation of notice or recognition.....It is my vow to begin loving without pretension......without seeking recognition and just love like He loves....freely and unconditionally......No labor of love is in vain.

Well, our time together, at least in this place, is coming to a close....Please pray for me.....there will be no candlelight Christmas, for me this year and I'm completely torn up about that......I'm pretty much feeling like the song from "The Grinch" called 'Where are you Christmas?' There are just too many things left unsaid and I have to get right, before they can be.....Anyhoo, love each other the way He loves......

In Him,
Lisa